Do you remember being in your high school math class and in moments of frustration for not understanding the material, you ask the question, “How is this going to help me in the future??” Yeah, I know… I asked the same thing. It wasn’t until recently that I discovered that while we may not need the content of what we were learning at the time, the principle was far more valuable than I ever imagined it would be.
I like math. Didn’t always, but that was before I discovered that I was capable of learning it well enough to succeed in its classes. One of the things I’ll never forget from algebra is PEMDAS: Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally. ;-) That was how we remembered it, but the acronym really stands for Parentheses, Exponents, Multiply, Divide, Add and Subtract. This is the correct formula for solving long-winded problems in algebra. Being the undisclosed rebel I sometimes am, I at times challenged this formula and tried to solve the problems my own way, forsaking the provided and proven formula. I soon discovered that doing it my way continuously lead me to the wrong solution but when I followed the provided formula, I would end up with the correct answer. All I had to do was submit to the process.
Such is my life. As a creative mind who enjoys thinking outside the proverbial box (hence my untold rebellion), I LOATHE the process that I have not chosen for or brought upon myself. I know that we as humans like to be in control and we feel to a certain extent threatened when we don’t have it but seriously thinking about it, do I REALLY want COMPLETE control of my life and everything that happens in it?? Especially considering the fact that I don’t know what tomorrow holds for me or my world… That’s a TON of responsibility that I, in particular am not willing to carry; especially when I have a real live relationship with the One who is in FULL control of EVERYTHING, even the purposeful creation of me. It doesn’t make sense to me to challenge His control. #myopinion
Everybody’s process is different. Each individual’s process prepares them for where they need to go (destiny). Not to compare mine with that of anyone else but my process is more difficult than I care for. Especially since it challenges the timeline I wanted/expected for my life. And the more I live, the harder my process gets. What’s most frustrating is that what my process has produced in me is not visible to the naked eye. However, for the success that will one day be mine, this process is absolutely necessary. And what it has produced and is producing in me carries enough weight to keep me grounded as I see and experience more responsibility throughout the vertical success of my career.
So what do I do?? Do I fight the process or let it take its course?? Which is more important: how I feel and where I am right now or where I see myself in the future?? Honestly, I’m more concerned with the hope of my future than my unfortunate present. Which is more important to you??
Love the process. It has your back. ;-)
